The Other Women by Erin Zak

Author:Erin Zak [Zak, Erin]
Language: eng
Format: epub
ISBN: 9781635557428
Publisher: Bold Strokes Books
Published: 2020-09-18T22:00:00+00:00

Chapter Twelve

Cecily

Willow doesn’t text back, but I get two more from Luke. One says, I’m doing it. And the other says, She is so mad I already knew. I am kind of enjoying this. I send back a heart emoji. I don’t know what else to say. He’s handling all of this better than I thought he would. If I would have known it’d be this easy, maybe I would have told him years ago.

Or maybe not. Maybe a part of me never wanted to lose him. Knowing he’s handling the news of his wife having an affair with a woman this well almost causes me to, what? Miss him? Is that what this feeling is? God, I hope not. The fear of him having a breakdown is worrying me. Of course, if he’s known this entire time, maybe the breakdown already happened.

And I missed it.

Just like I’ve missed so many things in our life.

I don’t even know how to process the fact that Luke knows. Every time I came home late, he knew what I had been up to. He knew why I smelled different. He knew why I pulled away and rarely wanted sex. He knew why I started losing weight. He knew why I started eating again the minute Willow left. He knew. Why am I so shocked? He is the only person in my entire life who has taken the time to really get to know me.

I am so sick of living this lie. Regardless of the love we shared, I cannot continue in a marriage with a man who lets me stray just to hold on to me. It’s not fair to him, to me, to our pets, to anyone. I hate myself for doing this to us, for straying, for not talking when given the opportunity. I want badly to fix everything, but fixing things would mean staying, and staying would mean suffocating slowly, and as much as I love Luke and will always love him, I cannot handle the thought of forever with him any longer.

My forever used to be Willow. And maybe it still is. Maybe once things calm down, and she stops being so angry at me, and I stop being hurt by her, we’ll find our way back to each other.

Or maybe my forever is something else entirely. Maybe it’s Francesca.

My mind flashes to her, her smile, her hands, her beautiful curves, and I’m scared by what this could mean. I know what lust feels like. And I certainly know what love feels like. At least I thought I did…But maybe I don’t?

Could this be it?

The doorbell to the suite rings, shaking me from thoughts that are pulling me deeper and deeper into something I didn’t want or need but am enjoying more than I thought I would.

After I open the door, I blink rapidly at the sight. Francesca is lovely most of the time, but there are moments when she’s simply stunning. Her hair is down, the dark fading beautifully into loose, honey-blond curls.

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